I go to the beach a lot when home and not because i wanna me an #islandgirl, but because i was born one, i grew up in one, and so i became one, sunkissed baby. If i could turn into an octopus i would. It’s probably tough to live under the sea with all these things that aren’t meant to be down there, but i think i would be a happy octo trying to scare everyone from behind, i mean, my camouflage powers will be super awesome.
If and when i can, i always carry a mesh bag and a mask and snorkel with me. I say hi to my fish friends and i take out things that do not belong. I also love to find sea glass. I think they’re pretty. I don’t take home shells will me though, you shouldn’t! The hermit crabs need their homes! Also sand, that’s a no no,
I have my friends there too. I appreciate them so much. They inspire me to be better and i, well i’m just there when they need me, a call away. Our nights consist of board games, occasional drinking and freestyle music. And sometimes, when it gets serious, we debate on the ‘randomest’ of things.
My family is there too. I spend time with them on the weekends. I play with my cat Ba everyday and i give him tight hugs that he mostly wants to get out of. My pet gecko Lucy is with my best friend Jack, since i’m still away. Home is fun. I’ll maybe talk more about it on the next video.
I had this dream. I was paralyzed in bed, couldn’t move, but at least I was kind of breathing. I-I tried so hard to open my eyes, but I could only see much. The little bird on the window, this little bird kept tapping on the window, this little bird is trying to talking to me.
“Oh little bird, whats the matter?” I mumbled.
Little bird must be lost
Little bird must find its way
Little bird where’s your mother?
Little bird am I a bother?
And before this little bird could speak to me, he turned his back and faced these dark, periwinkled clouds, extended his bright feathered wings and swoosh! He flew to the sky.
It’s the time of the year again, where decisions have to be made and songs have to be born to the world. I wish it was honestly easy as how I hear it in documentaries and these great musicians saying “oh I dreamt of this song, so I went to the studio and recorded it, and now, you know, it’s a hit!”.
But of course we have different paths, different paces and different approaches. You have all these ideas you want to multitask (does multitasking exist anyway?) and all these things you want to do in the future. Then, you suddenly feel everything and everyone moving too fast, like a head rush, or a bunch of people pressuring you to get a job (like what you’re doing isn’t). Either way they’re all the same, nothing but pressure, anxiety, a series of patterns you made in that mushy brain of yours that turned into a habit, a habit of worrying.
Before I started recording my songs, I was staring at the ceiling for hours and by hours I meant i failed to sleep the next day because my thoughts were just too loud. My brain was yelling at me telling me I’m not ready! The metronome is gonna kill me! I hate the metronome, i’m gonna be there for hours again and people around me are gonna bitch about how long I’ll be there. Oh and the chords, i’m sure they’re gonna ask me what it is, the answer is I don’t know — “Basta it sounds like this.” “It looks like this oh, you know what this is?”.
But meh, I did it anyway. I did it especially because I was scared. I did it because I never want to miss out anything in life. I never want to wake up in my 30s and say, “I wish I tried being a real musician, I wonder how it feels like.” or “what should I call myself? Hmm how about Just Meg?” or questions like “I wonder how my songs will sound like? Should I try writing one?”
A lot of times, I kind of suck being a musician. I theoretically suck at it the most. But i’m learning. And even though everyday is a struggle, i’m still grateful i have the time to learn and time to improve myself both musically and spiritually. The most important thing is, I try. Oh, you live and you learn. Life’s a bitch and cheers to that.
Note to self: breathe and learn some more.
Note to the reader: acknowledge your small achievements, you’re okay.
Finally! After months of trying to put everything together, Haven’s music video is ready to be released for people to enjoy! (if you wanna check it… Click me!) And of course, I got by with the little help from my friends. Pun intended (who doesn’t love them).
The music video was directed by *pats self*, it was produced by Reverie Productions and co-produced by *pats self*, and the script was written by *pats self* — strong and independent ya’ll. But in all seriousness, my intentions were pure and honest. Music videos are the eyes of a song. Haven is a familiar place, a place where I’ve grown to be who I am today — of how i came to be. So I thought I’d show you my chill hometown. Also, my friends and I recorded some of the footage during our Siargao trip and me oh my, it was one tranquil place. I fell in love with the place! There’s a certain inner peace that you feel once you get in one with nature.
Here are some behind the scene footage of my Siargao trip!
Then, we continued shooting some of the scenes in one of the must see places in Negros Oriental! We visited Lake Balinsasayao and we walked around downtown area of Dumaguete!
I wish i can let you see more ridiculous video footage but I left it back home! I’ll post it maybe some other time! But anyway, the music video launch happened in Allegre Dos, Dumaguete City. Along with me are performances from amazing local artists in Dumaguete (you should check them out when you get a chance to visit!).
These are all for now folks! :> See you on the next blog!
Yeap, that’s right. After a decade, they’re back to murder your feelings… and mine too, actually. I wouldn’t consider myself a die hard O&L fan, ’cause let’s face it, I’m technically too young to be one, though in a way, I am. But hey, I’ve peeped a little during their glory days back when i was still a little potato and i am happy to say that i know a song… or two. I do remember growing up seeing them on television and singing along to Yakap Sa Dilim and liking it a lot without realizing what it meant (Mom! Wrong channel!). Remember when CD’s were still a thing? My Dad made us a playlist of OPM songs my brother and I liked and a few of their songs were included in the list! (Sorry, piracy). BUT, You know what I don’t remember? Seeing myself perform for them.
When the official statement of their comeback flooded the internet, i freaked out. My first thought was, “I need to fly to Manila and see them perform.” But then, when my label asked me if i can fly to Manila to perform for them, I honestly freaked out more than the amount of times i said ‘freaked out’. “What am I gonna sing?”, “What am I gonna wear?” I did not think this through. All i was concerned about was that I was finally gonna see them live.
And so i did, and i enjoyed A LOT. The Strange Creatures and Blind Stereo Moon also performed! Everyone was singing along and the place was packed with people. I had to stand on a chair ’cause life’s kind of hard when you’re five foot two. I have appreciated more of their songs and most of them I’ve heard for the first time. I even have favorites now! I love Hey, Please!
And when i said it was packed here’s how the venue looked like:
I sang my version of Across The Universe by The Beatles and four of my original songs!
Ahehe. Feel na feel. Seriously though, I enjoyed my set.
Here’s me and this awesome dude Rolly whom I met during The Camerawalls Concert and he let me sabotage his uke! How cool is that! You don’t get to do that everyday.
What a night! Well I am hella glad they’re back! There is so much to look forward! I’m keeping my eyes and ears wide open. Nothing excites me more than new music!